It gets me everytime.
I can't hang up Gabriel's angel baby ornament without wishing that he was with me, and crying because he is not.
I miss him.
I lost my son, Gabriel, when I was almost 20 weeks pregnant. He had a rare abdominal cyst that stopped his tiny heart. I had to give birth to him on October 2, 2009. Because of him, I live my life completely different than I did before. I wanted to chronicle everything in my life...I am a writer once again...because of my sweet Gabriel.
Aww of course you miss him; that will never change... How could it? I lost my son 10 years ago and, I still miss him... Still wonder what he would look like,
ReplyDeletestill try to imagine what his laughter would sound like and, still picture him playing with his older brother or holding the new baby... What would it
be like? Those thoughts don't bring on the same desperate pain anymore, but there will always be an emptiness in my heart which noone else can fill.