How Far Along:
26 weeks :-)
Best Moment This Week:
Aurora stayed with me this weekend. Aurora is my 4 year old niece. She and I played Barbies and baked cookies, and played games. The whole time I was enjoying her I kept thinking, I will get to do this with Lucy!
Cravings/Aversions:
I placed the pasta on the back burner this past grocery shopping trip in order to be more healthy. So instead I baked a cauliflower/broccoli casserole and then...smothered it with cheese. So..I am still working on the healthy thing. I do crave more veggies and salad.
What I miss:
Pet Supplies Plus, my old retail job. I never thought I would say that, but the stress at work keeps getting to me. I love being a teacher, but working where I work is taking its toll. I had to take a sick day a week or so ago because I just couldn't face any more stress that the administration keeps laying on. I get panic attacky when I think about that place, and if I actually lived in an area that valued the work that GOOD teachers do, then maybe I would have options. But unfortunately, my profession isn't that valued in these economic times and I feel stuck. I miss being able to work a 9-5 and be home...stress free. God Bless America's teachers.
What I'm looking forward to:
This week, to destress, I am leaving at my contracted time, 3:30. To know me is to know that I work til 5:30 and I barely take work home after that, except for on weekends. But being in that place is killing me. So I am going to work from home and see if I enjoy the job better this week. I love my kids, but the admin is too much..so I am hoping working for my kids in my comfy sweats at home after school will bring them a happier teacher!
Emotions:
I am getting excited just thinking about Lucy and what she will look like. I am sad because I thought I could take 9 weeks off of work and it looks like they are going to hold me to the strict 6 week rule. I am panicking about money a little...
Weekly Wisdom:
Family is the greatest. I really love my family and cling to them for everything. I had a great time being with family this weekend and I don't want to take any of that time for granted. I am really lucky to have what I have.
Anything Else to Share:
Sometimes I wish I didn't have a male doctor. I was really embarrassed of these stretch marks when he lifted my shirt at my appointment this week. I know, they have seen it all, but still....
I lost my son, Gabriel, when I was almost 20 weeks pregnant. He had a rare abdominal cyst that stopped his tiny heart. I had to give birth to him on October 2, 2009. Because of him, I live my life completely different than I did before. I wanted to chronicle everything in my life...I am a writer once again...because of my sweet Gabriel.
Megan,
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on 26 wonderful weeks! I'm so happy that you are doing well, but understand the stress of work. I have friends that are teachers and they all talk about the work of keeping the paper trail...its exhausting! Give yourself permission to be good to you and blow that popsicle stand at 3:30 :)
As for a male Dr., I've not had one until my RE and thankfully I never had to bear all to him, as the nurses did all the work. However, as long as you are getting wonderful care, who cares what the gender is. As you say, they've seen it all ;) My friends hubby says he doesn't notice anything anymore, its just business as usual.
Hugs to you
xxx